only when you look at a glass window in the dark can you see a reflection.
Tuesday, April 24, 2012
Alright, let's accept everything that has happened today. As Ms Lam said, everything can be taken positively (okay that was a bit of an inference) but my point is that it is only when you are in a moment of darkness, when someone switched off the lies that were deceiving you all along, that you can truly see yourself. And what you've been doing. Or more importantly, what you haven't. Hence the cryptic title.
I'm just going to record down everything I thought of today for remembrance's sake. Not everything, but things. So
1. Don't do things you know you will regret. I think this is something everyone is guilty of. So often, we have discovered: I should have done this, or, I should have done that. But the point is why didn't you do it then? In fact that question isn't really an accusation, but maybe if we could answer the question, it would help us to understand ourselves and make a change. Anyway, my point is (sorry for being so beat-around-the-bush): make every moment count. Know that every minute you spend in band, you're making good use of your time. You are not wasting your time, you are not slacking (even if you rest think about stuff as you rest), you are not spending your time in a way you know one day you will regret. And I think if we can do that, simply MAKE EVERY MOMENT COUNT, we can make a lot of difference. Not just in band, but in our lives.
Kay sorry I don't think that made a lot of sense. :( But it makes some sense. Then you can take it in whatever sense thou wilt. (RnJ?)
2. Use your anger to make good what's wrong. Yup basically chope from Laura Lee's speech lah, but I think the message she imparted was very powerful: that anger can be "channelled to a higher purpose" to make good in our community what we have realized needs to be changed. Yup so today, don't feel disappointed, don't feel discouraged, instead use all our guilt (which is in its basic form anger toward ourselves) to push ourselves forth and if not make good, make better the undesirable situation we have found (and created) for ourselves.
3. Respect yourself. It's our/your DUTY to impact our audience. I think now it's not so much about leaving a good impression, it's about doing something you are proud of. Since band is already a part of our lives, why are we not making it a part of our lives we are proud of? Why do we choose to give less when we can gain so much more when we give more? :) Okay forget about respecting yourself. It's a bit out of point. Whoops.
4. Love band. I don't know, but this always helps. Love is powerful. I mean, I think the reason we started to hate/be angry with ourselves, it all came from love right? When we witnessed/experienced everyone's love for band, our open expression of love, our own love, it was so powerful most of us really didn't know what to say. :( Caught speechless. Anyway, use your love for band to inspire yourself to achieve whatever you set out to achieve. And make a difference to others with that love.
5. Dare. I think all of us learn along the way. And daring to make mistakes is the best attitude to have towards learning. That's what I think luh. So DARE. Try things out and improve every time you try it again. Dare to play loudly (and risk being too loud but you learn!), dare to play the rhythm (and risk being wrong since it's sight-reading, but the second time it won't be!), simply dare, and that would make all the difference.
6. Dream. This is essentially an extension of daring, since you have to dare to dream to dream. Dare to believe that you can be better. Dare to set goals for yourself that you never imagine you can achieve but that you want to, with fervor. Dream as in know what you want to hear before you play. Dream as in imagine the most beautiful sound your instrument could possibly produce. Dream that your music can make the audience cry. Dream all that you once undreamt simply because it was too far away. Because, time and time again, we have proven to ourselves (in other areas, perhaps?), we can do. so. much.
On another note, I've never really thought of Cadenza as something we have to do exceptionally well. In fact I just got reminded today it's our only Cadenza. I think we shouldn't treat this extra seriously simply because it's our only Cadenza, or because we are seniors, or because idk! All the strange and somewhat irrelevant reasons we have to take this seriously? We should treat this seriously simply because we are not doing what we know we can!
To end off, sorry this quote won't be very nice (as in politically correct) to have but anyway here's (an excerpt? sounds strange) from my blog:
"A nice quote today:
“The Trombone is the only instrument that in theory can play in perfect tune, but in practice never does.” -Sokrates, March 17, 421 B.C.
Nice cause I think it applies to so many things, and sometimes, things don't need to be as perfect as they can be. Cause that gap between perfection and non-perfection will be filled up by something else. And maybe that makes more of a difference than achieving perfection."
(not from my blogpost) On a sidenote, I think that gap surfaced today, and don't you think we learn so much more from such moments than when easy success comes? And it is moments like this that make that gap to perfection that little bit smaller. :)
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